[10:01pm]

Reporting live from my bed again. I still have so much work to do. My target bedtime is normally 9-10pm; I thrive that way. I also always aim to not work on Sundays (observing the Sabbath), but alas, here we are. Having my routine thrown off like this worries me a lot, but I just try to remind myself that it’s not permanent.

Today at church I helped out (served?) for the first time. I went in early to help out with the food and setting up. I’ve never really served or been involved in any capacity besides attendance in church before. It was really nice; just another avenue to connect with the people there. Later after church, I was asked if I wanted to participate in another weekly event and honestly, I don’t think I can for now. It just felt a little too overwhelming to be taking on another thing when I just started one thing. Maybe I’m overthinking things, but I also know what happens when I try to do too many things at once. [[Flashback to Spring Quarter of 2022; story for another time. All I can say is, join me in praising the Lord because I made it out.]]

Anyway, I just spoke to my brother, and it always calms my heart. You know when you think, ‘Man, there’s people out there who really love me just for me. Not because of my academics or what I can achieve. Not because of all this stuff I’m stressing over, just me, without the frills.’ I wish I could see myself from their point of view.

-Moonie x.

Photo context: Not much to say here really, just me hiding behind flowers, again. But this time, sunflowers 🌻