[10:30pm]
Honestly, I don’t know what to say and where to start, Happy New Year ? 😅
Last year I had kind of made a decision that I couldn’t continue blogging. I’m trying to remember whether I just felt lazy, or if there was a specific reason. Not sure. I had decided that I would let the subscription expire, then move on from what I considered then to be ‘just a phase’.
Anyway, a couple of weeks ago, I saw a (very high) charge on my debit card, tagged ‘BlueHost’, and I was fuming! It turned out that I had signed up for autorenew, and they charge you 15 days before the actual day that the service expires. I saw absolute RED! I tried looking online for information on how to get a refund, as well using the online chat, but no success. I had resolved to give them a call over the next few days, but alas, I never did.
Honestly, I just took it as a sign from God that maybe I should keep writing. I don’t know, but I’ve accepted the situation and figured I should make the most of the subscription if it’s already paid for anyway.
The reason I chose this time specifically to pick up my metaphorical pen is because I’m actually going through a really tough time emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Keeping it all inside has me bursting at the seams, and though I’m talking to my close friend about it all, and I feel incredibly blessed to have her, I also think I ought to make an effort on my side to deal with things. She’s human too, and has her own burdens. I can’t get into everything on this post, but over the next couple days (or weeks, or months, depending on how this season intends to last), I will share. I feel led to share in case someone comes across this and can feel as though they’re not alone. I also feel led to share because I know I will make it to the other side, by God’s grace. And when I do, I want to be able to look back on these entries and see the faithfulness of God. I want to be able to look back and be reminded that I can do hard things, and that I’m growing more and more resilient each day, even if the change is minute. The fact that I wake up to face each day, and I show up, is proof.
Anyway, it’s pretty late. Day 2 of classes and I am finished already! Phew – God save us all!
-Moonie x.
Photo Context: Y’all! 🥹 Last year October, I ran my FIRST EVER half-marathon 🎉 This was honestly one of the highlights of my entire year! I had so much fun at the run itself, but more than anything, I was so proud of myself when I looked back and recognized how hard I had trained and how disciplined I had been. I also saw how that discipline poured over into other areas of my life like research. What an amazing experience! It’s been a while since then, and I’m yet to get back into running consistently, but I definitely do miss it and I will be back 🙂