[6:30pm]

Yesterday was BUSY chile! Phew! But, we got a lot done. I had a meeting with my PI regarding some things that were major contributors to my research anxiety, and she really sat down with me and planned stuff. We had another meeting this morning to wrap things up, and honestly, I really feel supported. I feel really blessed, and less like I’m bumbling around, y’know? Yeah. Lord, thank you. 

And today I was really strict about my time in lab (my hard cut-off’s for leaving), and today, for the first time in a long time, I was home by 4pm. I managed to shower, eat dinner slowly, and do my nails. So, so refreshing! I’m gonna get some work done tonight, and try to sleep early.

Actually, hold on; one last thought. I’ve been wondering a lot lately – Am I really a scientist? Sometimes I watch people and how excited they get about the science they’re doing, and I feel a little bad because I don’t feel that way, atleast not to that magnitude. I think most of what I do is cool, but I don’t know if I’d describe myself as being passionate about it. I go in, do my best, and can’t wait to get home. Hm, I don’t know. I just read an article (linked here) that was shared with my lab about the whole ‘Follow your passion’ song that’s constantly being sung, and the author suggests that perhaps it should be changed to ‘Follow your blister’. Your blister being that thing you keep going back to even though it can be quite challenging, and gives you grief sometimes. It got me thinking . . . .

-Moonie x.

Photo Context: This picture does not fully capture how serene and beautiful this place was; not even close. This was at a retreat I went to with my church, where we stayed in these beautiful cabins, and this was our view the entire time.